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the sudden slap of Cancer

Posted Thursday, June 16, 2011, at 7:37 AM

I have some hard things coming up real soon. Have to quit my beloved job, move to texas and move in with my mother who is dealing with stage 4 cancer we just found out about. I honestly don't know if i'll be able to work while i am in texas and try to care for her and take her to docs appts. Wish a money fairy (wealthy person) would come along and say "here I gift this amount to you..) Ah well... it will all work out..It will all work out.

My poor son came into the bed room in the wee hours of the morn and was crying and was worried about his Grandmum, my move and absence and the fact that his cell phone screen has bad pixals and his beloved computer has a rogue virus he could'nt fix.( He really needs a new one..)

I cannot make anything right, except replace phone and try to fix computer.

What I am fixing to go through is not going to be easy. I will be alone, and working though years and years and a worlds accumulation of things bought all over the world to sift though and determine what to keep and what to sell.

Having seen my father go though cancer in it's last stages I am so frightened about this I really just want to say, forget it.. but..I cannot. I am more than this situation and so is my mum.

Saint Julian of Norwich said something years ago dealing with her terrible sicknesses and afflictions and I can draw on that wisdom: "All shall be well, and all shall be well and all manner of thing shall be well, Let nothing disturb you. Let nothing frighten you. Everything passes away except God."~ Indeed.


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I am so sorry to hear about your beloved Mother. May the Lord bless you and your family and give you strength to cope with this illness.

-- Posted by Poksalad on Thu, Jun 16, 2011, at 8:15 AM

God be with you Lesa!

-- Posted by bbbluebird on Thu, Jun 16, 2011, at 8:15 AM

Big Hug, and lots of prayers.

-- Posted by wonderwhy on Thu, Jun 16, 2011, at 10:33 AM

Ya'll are awesome.. I really appreciate the prayers they are felt big time..

I am doing what my Brit friends are doing "Keeping a stiff upper lip.." (whatever the heck that means.. LOL haha..

-- Posted by 4fabfelines on Thu, Jun 16, 2011, at 6:24 PM

My brother did this for our parents some years ago. It was a blessing for us and our parents, but I can only imagine how tough it was for him.

Don't hesitate to find a "strong shoulder" and "compassionate ear", whether it is a friend, professional or support group. You do not want to do this alone.

That said, you are an immense comfort to your mother whether she says it or not. You are also teaching your children the importance of family and the loyalty you have to your mother.

Our prayers are certainly with you and I know MANY here in Bedford County feel the same. Our prayers also for your Mom and anyone going through this.

-- Posted by stevemills on Fri, Jun 17, 2011, at 9:31 AM

The doctor looking me in the eye and informing me I had cancer literally sucked the wind out of me. However it was God's love and the support of my family and friends that provided the strength to get through it all. God be with you Lesa, he will provide all that you may need.

-- Posted by Tim Lokey on Sun, Jun 19, 2011, at 9:02 AM

thank you all... this has been hard but i do have a amazing peace..

-- Posted by 4fabfelines on Sun, Jun 19, 2011, at 9:44 AM


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Lesa Cox has owned a cleaning service and a bookstore; now, she repairs and maintains computers for the elderly and others on a fixed income. She enjoys animals, gardening, books and fixing old cars. She and her husband have one son, who suffers from Asperger's syndrome.